I CAN do this!

After my weigh in yesterday I felt so good, and so proud of myself.  For those of you that know me, that's a rarity.  I hardly ever pay myself a compliment, (I know, it's an issue I'm working on) and yesterday, I was so proud! 

I lost 2.2 pounds, and hit my first 5%.  When I looked at my little weight loss record book, I thought to myself, wow, I can really do this.  Sure it's hard.  But I'm focused, and am just feeling it this time around.  My mom told me yesterday that she could hear it in my voice that I'm just going to do it. 

Sometimes I let myself enjoy a meal, but I don't let it derail me, and I don't lose focus.  I just enjoy that one meal, and then I move on.  I'm not going to deprive myself.  I enjoyed the pumpkin muffins last night, and it they were yummy.  It was worth it to me.  I accounted for it.  I'm allowed to do that.  I'm a sweet tooth girl.  I like it, I want it and I allow it.  If I shut out foods that I enjoy, then I wouldn't be doing this, and I wouldn't be succeessful. I would get frustrated, irritated and then cave to them and then completely give up.  And I'm not going to do that this time.  I have this little monkey to keep me going.

Look at that face?  How can I not want to be around as long as I possibly can for her?  How can I not push myself to be healthy and happy?  She is the love of my life, and I want only the best for her, in every single aspect.  I want her to have a healthy, happy, energetic mommy that will be able to run around with her and play with her and take her to fun places.  I want her to know what healthy is, and I never ever want her to struggle with the same things I have gone through and are going through.  I want her to know that life is so precious, and to enjoy every single second of it.  Her face, her smile, her giggle runs through my head when I put food in my mouth, when I run on the treadmill, and when I dance around in my classes.  She's worth every single sweat, tear and calorie.  She's worth it all!

It helps that I have so much support to make this lifestyle change.  It helps to have good people around me, and it helps to not have doubters.

I can do this, and I am doing this, and it feels good!